hmmmmmmmmm

okay so it is the end of the road.
damnnn. -_- we made them cupcakes,
and brownies and cookies. all of
them were happpy ahahah. (: but
yeah its sad w|o them there. ):
but i know they'll all be fine.
ill miss them but i wish them
all the best of luck in there
future endeavors. <333333
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the baby shower was today! the
baby was only there for like
20 minutes though! -_- that was
cheeeeks ahah but shes still a
peanut! she's only 6 pounds. lol
& her car seat is so big for her.
ahah awwwh i love her. momma got
some good stuffff. lol besides all
the stuff i got her before, i got
her a big case of diapers, and a
big case of wipes to go along with
it. ahah & we got her a blanket.
jennn was maaad gasssed lmao* (:
cant wait to see you again
noelani. <3
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ghost isnt ghost anymore i guess.
ghost is tryna randomly just come
out the cut, & be back in our lives
again. ha. yeah whateverrrrrYO. eck.
angelica says "ghost is just trying
to get back into the swing of things,
leave ghost alone." ahaha yeah riight.
but whatever im goin with the flow. (:
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yeah so shiiit is going lovely iguess.
umm im living my life to the fulllestt.
and taking shit day by day. ahah the
daysss are going goood. ahaha guess what.
welcome to the show, im the main attraction! (:
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and with that, im outttttt. (:

ahaha

apparently this girl hates me? ahah

maaaaad random. lOl but whatever.

i dont really careee. ahah but yeah.

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tomrrow is really the end of the road.

like damn, i knew this day was coming

soon, but i didnt think that it was really

gonna be here this soon. like damn. i

know that its hard to let the future begin.

like this is reality, dudes are stepping out

of thier bubble into the real fucking world.

im honenstly scared for him. hmm, i just

wish that things didnt have to happen so

fastttt. -_- idk what to do, peter will be

absolutely fine i know that i just think

that im sad cause he's leaving without

me. like idk i know it doesnt sound that

serious, but to me it is. like its mad

depresssing. hmmm i know that its

not the end of the world, but still. i hate

the feeeling of being forgottten. i know that

im not forgotten yet, but thinking that

i willl be scares me. i just wish him the

best, & i hope he knows i love him. ♥

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baby shower's on saturday. im happy and

sad at the same time. ugh idk what to think.

aha dont asssk why its rediculous. honestly.

but whatever, me&angelica are down for

the ride iguess. whatever tho. we've had

enough of the endless bullshiiiit grow up.

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journals great, twitter is WONDERFUL.

ghost is still ghost, and always will be i

guesss, i have one thing to say to that:

SMEEEEELLLLLLLLLL. -_-

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i really feeel like even though mad shit is

fallling apart now, its not that bad, and

for once im actually not complaining.!

sometimes good things fall apart, so that

better things can fall together. ♥ i

believe that thats a true statement. so

word to that. (: but yeahhhh ahah im

constantly looking on the brightside of

things. lifes to short to be sad and to

complain all the time. lOl so whatever

yu can waste time mopeing around,

crying and whining or you can pull

your shit together and move the

FUCK ON. and you know what ....!?

IM MOVING THE FUCK ON. (:

uhmm.

damn. ahah i'm never on this anymore.

but yeah, shit is alright. ha. for once,

i can honestly say that things are

alright. just alright. not bad like they

usually are but just alright. and you

know what, its not that bad afterall.

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he's in his own world, and moved on.

im obviously in my own world, and im

taking things day by day. which for me

is okay. i realized that i dont need to rush,

and sometimes i just need to take time

for myself, and just think. you know?

and now is one of those times. and

thats perfectly alright for me.

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my baby is now 23 days old. awwe

thats almost a month. ahah <3

i havent seen her, only pictures,

i know that shes getting biggg!

she has big dimples! and she is

still absolutely beautiful. ♥

im finally gonna see her, and on

saturday, and i cant wait. awwe

love you noelani. <3

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my journal is coming along! its

absolutely wonderful ahha. i know

that that sounds mad cheesy, but

its true. lol i love that thing. lOl

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pssst. i know i said that it was wack,

and that i would never do it, but i

did it, i made a twitter! yeah i did.

i actually kinda like it. lol (:

you people should folllow meeee!

twitter.com/shimonaaa

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OHyeah! i hate when people go

ghost. like obviouslt everyone

does it. but still. like i dont think

that i've tried to like put in effort,

to let them know that im still here,

and i still do care, and i just wanna

help. but when someone like just

doesnt even acknowlegde the fact

that yur tryin mad hard, idk it just

kinda hurts. -_- i wish that they

would call or text & be like "hey!

im still alive." yu know, i mean it

just flusters my brain i guesss. :/

but i aint mad at cha. its just really

annnoying. but whatever its lifeeee.

^ i know who yu think im talking about,

ahah guesssss agaiinnnn! fooolish people.^

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but yeah, i mean thats just an update, lol

but i'll probably write next month. lmfao.

i love this blog. (:

lately ...

so seems to me like he moved on. hmm.

i don't know what to do or say. i always try

to do things to get my mind off of him. but

that only works for so long. then after that

im still stuck thinking about him, while im

damn sure he aint thinking about me. -_-

i have no idea what to do anymore, and i

feel like a complete and total IDIOT. :\

i need help, cause im a complete wreck.

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yeah my baby is finally here! lol born

27 days early but she's here, and im

super gassed. she was born 5.1`09.

at 4 lbs. 10 ounces. and i went to see

her and she is absolutely beautiful. ♥

she doesnt understand how much i

love her. i bought her her 1st pair of

jordans, & her first pair of nikes.!

am i a great aunt or whattt? ahaha

welllllll, i love you so very much

Noelani Jael Jonay<3

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my journal is coming along lovely

and i actually like writing in it.

it helps me vent i guess you

could say. i always write a

"quote of the day." in it,

and i think that sometimes

it reallly helps me to just sit

down take a breath and think.

i absolutely love my journal.

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overall though i guess things are

going alright. besides yu know

the regular normal stuff that

every teenage girl goes through.

ahahaha. but i think that in the

end everything will be alright.