blah.

i havent writtten in OD but i started a journal that i seem to love. (:

my dance teacher gave it to me. but yeah. anywhooo,

i feel like i have been riding a rollercoaster, & i been down most of my

ride. :/ like lately things have jussst been worse before they get better.

like idk i dont really wanna write publicy everything that happened,aha

but it doesnt matter.

zander obviously broke my heart. ahahha! theres no hope anymore i

guess. -_- i mean you know how it is when you really care about someone,

like you call them all day long cause you just want to see how their day

is going, and what they're thinking about. i mean after a while trying as

hard as you can gets old, and you just get sick and tired of being hurt. :/

i mean you know what they say;

if you love someone let them go, & if they come back to you then its

meant to be, and if they dont it never was. i guess for me, it all comes

down to me wanting to be with someone who wants me back. and

apparently i cant have that, so i'll be single forever. ha. thats not

funny. ahah eck it makes me sick.

"there is nothing worse in the world, than being dissapointed by

someone you thought loved you."