not a good day.

today was a bad day. like it sucked. inever thought he'd see me cry. well so much for thinking that. ifucking cried. yeah idid. & idk anymore. my heart just really fucking hurts. iguess there's somethings people dont know about me. iguess its that my smiles are fake, and when no one's around my "happy smiles" turn into watery tears. ilove & care about people who dont care about me, & ihave a hard time lettting things go. some people love me & some hate me. but it doesnt matter. iguess ijust wish things were the way they used to be so my smiles can be real again.

idk im just lost...