blah.

i havent writtten in OD but i started a journal that i seem to love. (:

my dance teacher gave it to me. but yeah. anywhooo,

i feel like i have been riding a rollercoaster, & i been down most of my

ride. :/ like lately things have jussst been worse before they get better.

like idk i dont really wanna write publicy everything that happened,aha

but it doesnt matter.

zander obviously broke my heart. ahahha! theres no hope anymore i

guess. -_- i mean you know how it is when you really care about someone,

like you call them all day long cause you just want to see how their day

is going, and what they're thinking about. i mean after a while trying as

hard as you can gets old, and you just get sick and tired of being hurt. :/

i mean you know what they say;

if you love someone let them go, & if they come back to you then its

meant to be, and if they dont it never was. i guess for me, it all comes

down to me wanting to be with someone who wants me back. and

apparently i cant have that, so i'll be single forever. ha. thats not

funny. ahah eck it makes me sick.

"there is nothing worse in the world, than being dissapointed by

someone you thought loved you."

dynamy-

ha. -_- its 5:39 and i just got out the meeeting at dynamy. ahah i dont think i've ever left a meeting so mad. liks they were all talking about the word "niggga." and how its "so wrong" and

"no one should ever say it" and "stop blaming it on the white people because black people say it too" and blah blah blah. like yo shut the fuck up. and get over it. people are gonna say the word nigga no matter what so just man the fuck up and deal with it. like just because you're a senior doesnt mean that you're any smarter than any of us. like damn yo. for real im so pissed at all of them. like eck. but and so and then the people at my table was allll geeekin, cause we thought the shit was OD funnny. ahah so the whale just came out of no where & was like "MOUTHS CLOSED." and so and then im thinking in my head, shut the fuck up. who the helll are you?! oh yeah thats right, nobody. but yeah after that i just got so pissed so i put my head down. & then i left. like wtf that conversation was so stupid. and it needed to stop before it even got started. eck this is another reason why i dont like this place. -_-

but anyways me lately?... hmm i been alright i guesss. but yeah ummm i have no idea what else is new. i made a new friend! his name is ummm "peter" aaha hes super illlll doggggg. even thought e are complete opposites. lOl but hes od funnny & we hang alot. its great. but umm i might go to junior prom but i dont think so anymore. so yeah, i won the ball ! & i won 1,000 dollarssssss. can youo say gasssed?! hmm i think so. lol but yeah im waiting for my mom 7 its 6:07 now its gettting pretty late. -_- my moms outside. ahah good timing! im outtttt. pceeeeeeeeeeeee. ♥

debutante ball.

okay so the ball is tonight & im mad nervous. :/ my day hasn't started off well. my hair looks like shit. literally. -_- like eck. im so pissed about it still. but yeah like i cant even fix it, and everyone is just getting on my nerves. & i have no idea why lik eccccck. but then again it coulda been worse. :/ so look on the bright side. & i bought this new eyeliner & it fxcking suckssss! like seriously. double you tee efff. [wtf for those of you who didnt get it] but yeah my nails & toes are teh only things that came out good lol. i was in the hair dressers at 830 this morning. & not its 147 pm & i havent eaten anything. and i dont wanna eat cause then i wont fit into my dreessss! eck this sucks. but yeah i got mad people comin to see me. ahah wooop wooop & they're gonna see me lookin cheeks cause my HAIR LOOKS LIKE SHIT. -_- but yeah anyways everyone keeeps saying "oh dont stresss, dont stress" like no niggga you dont unerstand. but i reallyhope i get that $1,000 dolllars. i'll be gasssed ahah like deadasss. but nugget got het nails done just for the ball & im gasssed lol wooop wooop. ahahah mad girly! i cant wait to see them on her. and i spent mad money already for the day on mad litttle shit after this iam broke. wtf i need a job. wish me luckkk. im out ♥

assssholes

dear all you assholes,
All those times you tried to break me, I’m still here. I’m a good person, I try to do my best in everything I do. Yeah I make mistakes, I mess up sometimes but I learn. I stand on my own. One day you’ll see im going to make something out of myself. Whether im flipping burgers, or running a hospital I’ll be the best, somehow some way. I’m not going to waste my life. By the way my name is Shimona Romney and I will be somebody some day.


i had a bad day today. -_-

hmmm ...

yeah i know its been OD long lmao*. i never write on here anymore. maybe its just because im busy. well im busy doing a whole lot of nothing. :/ lOl

well yeah lately. nothin really has happened. but well i got in to a fight/argument with melissa. well it wasnt really an argument or a fight. we just stopped talking. like i dunno there was jus mad shit goin on that doesnt need to be put public. but yeah umm idk i talked to her & shit seems to be getting better but not really. lOl um i tried to fix the problem but its on her now cause i did all i could. but idfk lately i been like fuck a friend. cause they all been ghost. like idk shits just wack now. aha. :/

oh yeah the other day me & this kid got in to an argument ahahh. like idk cause he was talkin shit to me & iwas like wtf i was doin somethin is that fxcking okay with you?! damn. which resulted in us not talking for like 2 days. but we.

my phone was also disconnected from wednesday morning until friday night. lmao* -_- like idk but i kinda realized i dont really need a phone that bad. like its not that serious. but now that its back on i dont even like pay attention to it that much. i only need it when im bored. ahahh wOw.

so yeah i been hanging out with Zander. lately like umm i feeel like shit w him was better. but now its gettting worse. aha well not really pero he's just mad moody. ugh.

and then theres smith. lmfao* (thanks mangy) well idk hes old. ahah but he's OD chilll. & mad in like with me. but yeah like sometimes idk what to do cause he's like mad chill but i dont see him like that. lOl but yeahh hes mad sweet to me. ahah

welllll yeah ithink thats enough about that but ima write another one. &

by the way this probably doesn't make any sense to you but then again,

its not supposed to. (: as long as i can understand it im good.

last night !

so last night iWent out with the dolls & we had OD fun! (: we went bowling. & yes bowling is the new thing to do. watch iBet maad heads are gonna start doin that. lOl we're trendsetters. LMFAO. anyways so we has to walk from auburn to worcester last night. michaelea was distraught cause she had capri's on. ahahah we were all laughing at her. the walk was a good 25 minutes & when we got to the bowling alley place michaeleas legs were purple. lmfao* im still laughing about that. ahah so yeah when we got there we seen some cheeeks girlss, and we was laughing at them cause they were really tryna grillll. lmao* oh yeah how do you wear blue, gold, and black & match? ahah YOU DONT. lmfao oh yeaaah joke of the night was "GUTTAAA" lmao iLove my ladiess. & betcha didnt know that all of our names end in a. ahahha - shimona, melissa, tiana, isadora, & michaelea. interesting huh corey. (: thankss for that one. but yeah we met some sexy's. lmao & they were obv. scared to talk. aahhah until like an hour & a half later. lmao (: anyways so yeah iHad a great night cause iFeel like we all needed to have one girls night. its beeen forever since the last time we went out. oh yeah & we went for mitata's birthday. aahah evern though that shit was monday. (: lOl so yeah when iGot home maaad heads started calling me. iFelt OD loved. (: ahhaha then iGot one phone call that just turned my night around for the worst. -_- iWas reallly upset & iStill am. but ugh whatev. you cant rain on my parade. OH NO YOU CANT ! so todayy iWoke up mad sleepy still. & iHave nothing to do today, with no ride anywhere. :/ ugh. this really sucksss. well i'll probably write another blog later seeing that iHave nothing else to do. actually ima work on my english project. (:

"& she's the kind of girl who could be holding the weight of the world on her shoulders, and no one would ever know."

befuddled.

so its been OD long. my fault. :/ but yeah hmmm iAm confused. seems like i'm always that way. lOl. but yeah like idk what to do because like iLove someone but iHave 2 people trying to "bag." ahaha iFeel like im always put in the position as if iAm the bad guy. -_- like iM attempting to be as nice as iPossibly can but it's not working apparently. :/ so you now what FUCK IT. no more nice girl because in the end the nice one just gets fucked over. im getting my life straight & im gonna focus on whats important to me.! school, dance, reading, friends, and him. thats it. iCan no longer try to be nice to everyone iKnow.

So as of right now, ahaha im on the phone with some child. he's fxcking retarded. -_- like ugh. WHY ARE BOYS SO STUPID. do they have any idea of how to speak to a girl? Oh, iDidnt think so. iHate the fact that it feels to me that this isnt going to work. iFeel like im giving a mile and he's giving an inch. iFeel like we take 5 steps forward to get pushed 10 steps back. iDunno ijust wanna hear "iLove you shimonaaa." ahah that would make my day. but iGuess you cant have everything that you want. and whats meant to be will always find its way. ugh. anyways my vacation sucks so far. :/ like iHavent went out anywhere. aahah im so boring. iNeed to go to the Y & work out im gettting morbidly obese. ahaha like im getting so mad right now so im getting off the computer. ugh. BYE.